Tuesday, July 10, 2018


I've been in a funk. I'm sad and stressed and sick to my stomach. I need a respite.

Last year at this time, we had four cats. I love my cats. I truly am the crazy cat lady. In October, my buddy, Bucky, went into congestive heart failure and we had to say good bye. The middle of June, Shidd got sick. The vet couldn't figure out what was going on. Then one day, he went for his morning walk and never came back. Shortly after Shidd was gone, Mrs. Black started declining. For two weeks we've gone back and forth to, is she going to die or is she getting better. Trying to work with the vet to figure it out, but rapidly running out of money from vet bills!

My job is stressful. I'm finding myself not keeping up - being disorganized - not following through. All things that simply are not me. I'm finding myself counting the days instead of the years to retirement (955).

I don't want to do anything. My blogs have gotten behind. My training business sits waiting. I cry all the time. I simply want to hibernate until it's all over.

So why am I telling you this? Because today I vow to move forward. To put one foot in front of the other and move beyond the circumstances. Today I will work harder at taking care of myself and not just everyone else. Today is my day.

Life isn't always the easy path. Those rough trails build our character. They lead us into place we might not otherwise go. And, as Albert Einstein said,
"In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity".

Today I claim it.


  1. It isn’t easy, but stay strong. I hope things get better for you quickly.

  2. I am sorry to hear about your furry babies. I hope Mrs. Black pulls through. Stress and grief from loved ones passing messes with our minds. May you find a healing path.

  3. Oh my goodness..I can feel you. I know I am getting there too and I am not afraid and I fully accept the reality. I am 49 years old and Im going through the peri menopause stage. I miss my strength..suddenly I am not who I am. I feel hot and cold , migraine, chest pain... What I don't like with peri menopause and menopause are these things and the and the adjustment. I hope your cat is feeling better now. We have one at home and he's a great companion. His name is Honey. We actually adopted him from the shelter and he is the sweetest thing.

    I don't want to bore you. Take care dear..



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